I have a confession to make. As some of you have probably noticed, I stopped posting blogs following my “One Year Bible Reading Plan” months ago. That’s because I failed to keep up with the readings…
Have you ever had a dream that you so badly wanted to accomplish and then you ended up NOT reaching your desired goal? That’s how I felt. At the beginning of the year I was so determined to do this plan and follow through with it. Then, life happened. At one point my hubs and I got so far behind that I just decided to give up — and I felt like a complete FAILURE after that.
I have another confession to make. I don’t read my Bible every day. This is something I have struggled with for YEARS. It’s been an ongoing battle to get up in the morning, bright and early, and start my day in The Word. It seems like such a simple and easy task, and yet it often doesn’t happen.
I end up feeling even more so like a failure when I go on social media and see all these photos of women reading their Bibles in the morning, with their cute “Jesus” mug, and their cute notebooks and cute pens (if that’s you, keep doing it because you are sure to inspire others).
I have another confession to make. Sometimes I don’t always feel like praying… I find that it can also be a struggle to make time to pray daily — I mean really pray. Not just saying grace at the dinner table.
As someone who grew up in the church, went to Sunday school every week, attended Christian schools and universities, and is now working for a Christian nonprofit–you can feel “Christianed-out.” Don’t get me wrong.. I will always love Jesus, love His Word, and go back to it as Truth, which is why it’s important to find different ways to spend time with Jesus–whether that be through dance, art, writing, drawing, or some other creative outlet. God gave you those gifts for a reason! 🙂
The reason I’m making all these confessions is for those of you who also struggle with prayer and spending time in God’s Word daily, to let you know that you are not alone, and that God still loves you. Believe it or not, God does not need you to read the Bible. He does not benefit from it — He is a perfect God who gave up His life for imperfect sinners so that we may be in His presence forever. Prayer and The Word are for us. These things are not meant to be a burden, but a way to lay it all down at the feet of Jesus, and surrender.
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”Matthew 11:28-30 (NLT)
The beautiful thing about God’s Word and prayer is that it’s supposed to refresh our soul and add meaning to our lives. God’s not angry with you because you did not open your Bible today. He wants to talk to you. He wants to bring you peace and comfort. Know that you can talk to Him anytime and anywhere. Your relationship with Him is personal, and, thankfully, it does not have to look like anyone else’s.
find joy [in The Word]. be bold [in prayer].